A New year’s arriving.

Two more days of work left. CORRECTION. One and a half day to be exact, since I’m working half day on New year eve. Time flies not really fast but okay. Dont really miss work actually becos for some reason (I cant figure it out) I cant wait to return to sch, to see nic, kaiting and the rest! Eliminate that jerk ass. I swear I’m gonna treat that person as invisible even i get to see that person in sch. Such awful haughtiness. UNBEARABLE. Haha. At least I got my face back by showing my delicate skills in sarcarsm. lol.

Will miss WC though hahah. Perhaps i could find u for lunch during one of my offdays? Hopefully. >_<

After thorough thoughts, I decided to take up four modules for my coming sem. The main reason is because I will be taking a non exam module and seeing how my frens suffered the prev sem, i knew that this decision to take a non-exam mod is no laughing matter. So, I better take fewer mods this sem. lol. I though I could escape from essay writing the nxt sem, but looking at it…nope. I cant. Sociology as well as the non exam history mod, well, i guess essays are unavoidable. Never mind. Shall get used to it SOON.

New year’s arriving soon. Time flies very fast this year. ESPECIALLY fast. I’m sure all my uni frens will concur this statement with me. OMG. I cant believe that I’m turning 21 nxt yr. Sigh. I dont want that. I dont want to be legalised.

Lots of things I hope to accomplish for year 2010. But I’m afraid I will acheive none. Resolutions? I have a long long list. Now aint the time to write it out yet, since new year day aint today. haha. Oh wells, I dislike the fact that I’m getting older.

With Love,

Rui Min

Family gathering on boxing day

Had a wonderful family K singsing session at Da yi hse. It was so hilarious and very very exciting with that ADHD doggie.  LOL. Photo of the day:

                                     

Austin! The Big, Fat, Over-hyperactive but cute doggie.:) AWWWW.

With Love,

Rui Min

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I have a very bad feeling about it. Perhaps it’s just a rewind in time, that history is repeating itself. A bad history.

With Love,

Rui Min

Sigh.

End of christmas marks the start of planning for modules again. Bidding nxt week. that’s very very sianz.

I’m also quite perplex about some thing. should I or should I not? Like wat sy say, miracles dont happen by itself, you make your own miracles.

Maybe I should.

With Love,

Rui Min

Christmas. :)

I’m glad that the party turns out fine ystd. Slumber party! LOL. Girls and guys talk. And I’m glad that evryone was there!! I thought that were absentees. haha! Yup. And I got presents from santa claus too! $20 BHG voucher. LOL. Deep inside, I knew what I’m gg to buy. TSK TSK. Gathering again tmr!

With Love,

Rui Min

PS: Dear Santa, I’m not greedy and not materialistic. I only want one precious present. You should know it well. Dont let me wait for long okie? I hope to see that present nxt christmas. Hee Hee.

Nonchalent.

Christmas day is just a few steps away from our doorsteps, the strong smell of christmas engulf the busy night of Orchard road especially, with lightings and Christmas carols playing everywhere along the streets. But somehow, i feel nonchalent about the festive this year. I have no idea. I recalled that ever since young, i have always been very excited when christmas is arriving, not because of santa claus but becos’ of the christmas cartoon that will be showed on Kids central I always love to sing the christmas carols along with the cartoon characters. I always love my family gatherings every christmas eve because i knew that there would be a santa claus giving out presents to all the kids in my family (that of course, include me too!). Perhaps, these were the reasons why I had been so excited about christmas.

Now, especially this year, it seems like everything changes. Well, the kids has grown up definitely, in fact, except for the 3 young ones, others are already in their teens and some are already in poly. No one seems to be that enthusiastic anymore. Christmas gatherings seem to be like our normal sunday gatherings. No more excitment when planning for celebration. Family members begin to lose their attendance in the gathering as well. I wonder why.

Anyway, alot of things changes. I dont feel like talking about it anymore.

With Love,

Rui Min

Happy Christmas

Release of sem 1 results

Results was out at 11m today. Tried to log in to the system but I guess every one is trying to log into the intranet at the same time and there was some jam in the system. Couldnt log in, which is why i decided to pay money by getting my results via sms. And I got it. Phew. Seriously it was better than I thought of. I thought i will hav Cs or i will fail my econs and southeast asia. Turn out that I got all Bs and B pluses for all my 6 modules. My CAP was satisfactory too. Luckily. Sem 1 was a tough one, juggling with 6 modules, and having 2 tuition cases is terrible. I rmb staying up late at night, I rmb giving up studying the txtbk but eventually I forced myself to read the entire book. Anw, this life will continue once sem 2 starts. So right now, I dont want to think of any other things except to enjoy the last few weeks of my hols and prepare for the nxt battle.

WIth Love,

Rui Min

FINALLY OVER. :)

Finally, ystd event is over! Can see that all of us are kind of stressed up because we do not want to screw up the whole event and I cant believe tat we actually can work from 8.30am to 11.30 pm!!! I’m soooo glad that the whole event turned up okay! And I see that majority of the staff are enjoying the night event!! Thumbs up to the working commitee, which is our dept!! Right Woon cheng?? hahhah.

And I suddenly realised the talent of somebody during ystd event. Change of opinion on him!  WAHHH!! He’s rich, talented and humourous too! OMG. My idol!!! Too bad, he’s married >_<.

With Love,

Rui Min

HELP

It’s only been the 2nd week of work and I’m getting restless. Cannot! I must adapt to such 9 to 5 mundane job!!!

With Love,

Rui Min

Deep thoughts.

I may look strong, I may look unfriendly and  I may look cold to some.

I may look independent, I may look decisive and I may look like I can stay on my own and need nobody else.

These looks are superficial and pretentious, do you get it?  It’s a way that I choose to protect myself and live in my own comfort zone, a way to tell myself I need nobody else. I can move on this journey alone. On one hand I continue to deceive myself that I am strong and I can make it alone but on the other side, I’m fading and falling. As I grow weaker, the barrier that I build for myself become stronger and more conspicious, sometimes to the extent that people may feel it too.

I’m trying to change but often bad habits are stubbornly hard to be ridden of.

It seems like I’m drowning, floundering miserably and shouting for help yet no one is able to hear my call.

It’s like the alarm is ringing incessantly but everyone is deaf so no one hears it.

And when I’m fading, you are not there. you dont even know. But I dont blame you because simply, you DONT KNOW.

Ignorance is bliss so you better not know.

With Love,

Rui Min