The worst torture .

Exams began with english on last friday, followed by philosophy on sat and complementary medicine on monday. I was quite pissed off on monday becos my complementary med exam was scheduled at a very odd timing, 5 to 7pm. came home, wanted to rush my econs revision but that stupid aircon servicing man came late, totally disrupt my study. got no choice but to leave both my southeast asia and econs revision on tuesday. was totally buried with books on tue,no time to leave my butt away from the chair at all and perhaps i was too nervous, i couldnt slp at all on tue nite! The moment i closed my eyes, that fcuking tax multiplier formula kept appearing in front of me, tossed and turned, couldnt slp, thot would slp better if i slept with mum but nope, disturbed her sleep instead. so yah, fyi, i havent slept for more than 24 hrs already. didnt slept at all!

Today had 2 papers! no confidence for sea paper, i have no idea wat im writing, i just write watever that comes into my mind dun even rmb whether did i cite the correct author’s name for my evidence. and econs was nxt. that paper was simply KNNBCCB (go figure out wat this stand for, dun ask me. damn pissed off)! its ridiculous man, to finish that paper within 2 hrs. everyone was complaining la. I recalled that back in poly, we have 15 mcq questions and 4 essay questions (with parts) and that duration was 2hr, as for today’s paper it was 4 essay question (with parts) but 40 mcq! and wats more, the qn werent straightforward kind, and i was abit unhappy to see that drawing a graph plus explanation only occupies 2 marks whereby in poly, such question cud easily be a 5 mks qn! totally sucks the hell of it.

thinking positively, at least the worst part is over. now what that is ,left now is social work and i think i have sufficient time to study, i havent touch on that subject at all. cant wait for 2 dec to arrive.

With Love,
Rui Min
ps: why do i always bump into you in sch? U are the first person i saw ever since i first stepped into sch and since then, i have always been bumping into u. to the extent of 3 times a day! how coincidental!

Dying…

Blogging via my mobile phone. I’m tired. after slogging for so long. 6 subjects is bit too much for me to study. 2 down, 4 more to go. evrything shall end on 2 dec. pls, that day faster come. I’m so stressed up that i keep wanting to go drinking! shit!

With Love,
Rui Min

chill B4 exams…

Final post before I stopped blogging (for a hiatus of three weeks i think. exams coming. perhaps, I might procrastinate la. so right now will be a hiatus of three weeks. HAHA!)

Last southeast asia tutorial today and we took class photos and pics with our tutor Ryan!

PS: Max! look at my shirt!! haha! I wore it to sch today!! DD

With my nus babes! )) They brighten up my dull sch life! This is not the one that Nana photoshopped. hahaha.

OMG. You know me, I’m not short. Ryan is just too tall. hahah!

Class photo!!

As for the video I promised to upload (the one i said my professor danced in front of the whole lecture), I will be uploading after my exams! I got it from nicole already! DD

So…bye for a while!

With Love,

Rui Min

 

Upset.

I’m still quite upset about yesterday night. Dont wish to talk about it here. It’s really very disappointing to realise how we humans could be so superficial and materialisitic, to such intensive extent. Sigh. And yeah, for proponents who always think that looks doesnt matterm please save your saliva and effort persuading people becos looks DOES matter, in whatever situations, be it the working society, school or watever. Long story short, good looks does pave a better platform for you to accomplish things. That’s the fact. Not to say, having both looks and brains would defintely give you a bigger bonus. That’s the reality so people, just FACE IT.

Anyway, on a positive note, I will be going bugis with nicole tmr for dessert after our lecture! Hm. At least smth keeps me happy at least for today and tomorrow. One piece of advice: Be satisfied and content with every little things in life. You will lead a happier life. That’s what I have learnt and it works. And I encourage you readers to do so as well.

Exams is coming real soon, like in 10 days time! Damn sianz.

I want to go drink, relax and chill with my friends after the exams!!!!

Gotta find some work to do during hols. Hope they wants me back to help for a temp period during my hols, I need $$ to fend myself. *Hint to woon cheng *

With Love,

Rui Min

Scarred LEGS….

THIS (I mean that gross picture above) is precisely the reason why I dislike nus now. I’m afraid to sit at the engine school canteen, I’m afraid to sit at the benches along the passage way towards the library. I even dislike waiting at the bus stop becos I get these!!! I seriously have no idea why insects love me so much. The ironic part is that none of my friends got that much as me!! Okay, i might be exaggerating abit la, i think one or two of my friends got bitten but not as much as me! Theirs were like one or two bites…but what about mine! I think it’s serious becos before the old ones get healed, the new ones appear (cos basically i hav to wait for buses at the bus stop, and I often sit ard the benches ard the lib =.=’). How? Any advice from friends? I think i need to buy a strong insect repellant. They are itchy and somewhat painful.

Right now, the only thing i can do is to avoid these areas (i’m avoiding techno park at engine as well as any places that are near those bushes…)

With Love,

Rui Min

Randomness in school

School today was damn happening, right all the way from 10 am in the morning during southeast asia lecture to social lecture in the late noon. Gonna talk about it one at a time. Alright, shall start off with SEA lecture, today’s lecture was about music identity in SEA and oh my! My professor was freaking cool! He danced in the lecture along with the melodious Thai music!! I forgot the name of that thai music, gonna refer back to my lecture notes (Like soon! since exams are in weeks time!) haha! HE danced! and Nicole took a short video, i’m gonna post it here once i got it from her!! Eveyone in the lect was like “WOOHOO!” and they clapped. hahahha.! SO FUN!

Right next was english tutorial. And today lesson marks the end of this module (of course, pray hard that i pass my exams lah, if not… choy!!!!) Got back our english test paper, was kinda satisifed. Actually, i really really think that tutor makes a big difference. Before getting back the paper, I have heard that some other classes actually did quite badly, but i reckon becos their tutor wasnt dedicated enough? Cos I really really must say that my tutor, Ms Pui, is really a dedicated one, she did alot of extra stuff for us, with her, we did more grammar editing exercises than any of the other classes and becos of her, i really really learnt alot of stuff! Stuff that I once thought that I was correct, but hell, i was wrong! Although, it’s really kinda a hard journey to start learning english like from the scratch for eleven weeks. But these efforts really paid off. I’ve learnt about better grammar usage such as what is verb form, word form, modal, auxiliary verb, conjunctions, parallelism error, Subject-verb agreement etc etc. I even know how to write my thesis statement in essays, not just english essay but others too. I have learnt about redundant prepostions, that all these while we kept saying “voice out”, which is wrong!!! “Voice” is already sufficient and of course many other more examples. And i realised often we thought “that” and “which” are similar but no. Sometimes, using “that” is wrong and “which” should be used instead, becos the information is non-defining… etc etc. ANd most importantly, I realised that what I have been doing in poly were totally wrong, my english then sucks to the core… Our notion of APA referencing back in poly were…. I wonder how did I survive thru my poly… It’s only now, then i know that even when u paraphrase, u stil have to put intext citation becos u are still using other ppl’s idea! of course direct quote would have a more stringent in text citation format… OMG. What am i blabbering about??? ANyway, this is my blog, so i just write whatever that comes into my mind now. All in all, I just dare not compare the language that I once used in poly to the one that I’m writing now. Although,mine is still considered not on par as to those who were once from JCs, I’m still glad becos I am conscious that my english has improved. I know u dont see it in my blog, cos apparently i wont be penalised by having grammatical mistake in my posts, so yah..that’s about it.

Moving on to social work lecture today. It’s also the final lecture, was glad to have some guest speakers who are none other than the graduating and graduated seniors and they shared some of their experiences to us. Lots of laughter, but it seems that it is really really tough to be a social worker. I’m still considering whether should I major in economics (I know ppl will encourage me to major in this cos this is the most practical choice), social work or southeast asia studies. These are my areas of interests and I’m really in a BIG DILEMMA.

With Love,

Rui Min

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A good way to de-stress: RetaiLLLL TherappppppYYYYYY

Yeah! The title says it all! I had a great time roaming and shopping ard Orchard with the gals today! It’s a pity that huiqi couldnt make it. never mind…there’s always a next time I reckon i must be feeling quite stressful the past few weeks cos’ if I did not estimate wrongly, I actually bought 3 things at one go within an hour, a blouse, a tee shirt and a pair of shoes, all bought at ION! TEE HEE!!! Oh yah! I finally brought the gals to have zha jiang mian plus guo tie today! No doubt, they all said that it was nice!! Hahaha. I’m glad that my craving for zha jiang mian and guo tie has been satisfied! However… I still havent satisfy my craving for the hot bowl of almond paste with sesame tang yuan dessert… Thinking of it…I’m salivating now…Argghh.

Aniwae, we took pics but I’m too lazy to upload here again since I have already put on fb. I’m sorry maxine! Go join FB la! hahahha!

Proper work shall begin tmr:)

With Love,

Rui Min

PS: I hope to see the radiant look on your face again, and be back to the days when we joke, laugh and study. I shall try to not avoid you anymore. My friend, if you are reading this, please cheer up:)

A 2 days of short break before I get into work.

Yeah! Like finally, 30th Oct has arrived! The end of all my projects!! I handed in my final project today and I’m sooooo glad. lol. Dont know how would I score though. lol. Anyway, I’m giving myself 2 days of short break before i start work this sunday. And tmr’s gonna be a shopping day! haha! Cant wait!

Side-tracked abit:

Today’s Southeast Asia tutorial talks about “Marginality”, which is if you think you are marginalised, it means that you are not part of the dominant or centre group, smth like being the minority. We were asked to discuss about the issues or characteristics of marginality and share our feelings whether do we think or do we feel we are marginalised. I was thinking about the racial aspect so I thought I dont feel marginalised since chinese seem to be the dominant group in singapore ( I mean at least now), however, nicole suddenly told me another aspect which I really really concur with her. I was like “oh yah! Now that I feel that I’m marginalised.” Well, i think this applies not only to me but to many of my poly frens who are now currently studying in local uni, especially nus and ntu. Dont you think that we are marginalised? Because, poly gradutate students are often the minority group in local uni and often, professors and lecturers just totally ignore our presence and this is evident during the lectures, they will go saying “Oh, you Jcs ppl are…..” or “I know you guys have learnt in JCs…” They totally dont bring up any questions or issues like “Does Poly students do this… or do that…” or “What you learnt in poly might…” etc. No, they NEVER EVER talked about us AT ALL. It makes me feel so uneasy when I first entered the university, because I really felt so weird to be the minority and even until now, I still feel this way, sometimes, I even felt irritated by the professors’ way of speech. I really dislike the feeling of being left forgotten. I think the proffesors or tutors or lecturers (or whatsoever) should keep in mind that there are more and more poly graduates as well as foreigners being admitted into universities, and so they should keep in mind that it is not very appropriate to just assume or raise issue that happens in JCs. They may think that we, the minority are okay with it, but NO. The fact that often we find it kind of irritated by their manner of speech, we dislike being forgotten, keeping quiet doesnt mean that we do not mind at all. WE DO. It’s just that we feel…helpless (this word seems to be bit extreme, but yah… the idea is there…).

I seriously hope that they could do smth about it.

With Love,

Rui Min

I’m trying to deny the fact that I’m feeling sad, but it’s obvious that I can’t.

I cant take it any longer, I’m going write whatever shit that I’m feeling right now into this post. I can’t deny the fact that I have been feeling rather EMO since last week, and that feeling persists til now. It’s not smth that I can control it and everytime I tried to shrug this feeling off, smth bad will happen and bring it back again. I recalled on last thurs when I really really have the strong urged to sit down and bawl loudly. I find myself a cowardice and uselss for not being able to defend myself when other shoot questions back at me, and there I was, standing like a statue. I hate to come to realise that I cant even defend myself in such simple scenario and that i have to rely on my groupmate to help me shoot back to them, when this actually should be my part of presentation and yet i failed to present entirely since most part of the credit goes to him since he was the one who shot back to the audience. I really hate it.

What’s more? I blamed myself becos as one of her close friend, I fail to bring myself up to face and console her. I realised that I have been trying to avoid her these days, even during lectures, becos I do not know how to console her. I cant believe that seeing her cry could bring tears to me as well becos I knew exactly what she is feeling right now. How could I be such a coward that I only console her thru sms and phone while i could actually make an effort to find her in school?  For fear that the forlorn look on her face will bring back those bad memories, pain and long missing of someone who passed away? She might not realised it but I do. I do realised that I have been avoiding her these days, becos I do not want to see that look on her face. I’m afraid i couldnt stand it. I’m selfish, yes, I have to admit. I fail to do my part as a friend. I failed.

I cant believe that i could be so easily affected by other ppl’s emotion. Why am I so bad at emotional handling? Is there some classes with regard to this issue? If yes, I would be the first to join becos I want to stay strong and never want others to see the weak side of me (and often, i failed to do so).

With Love,

Rui Min