I dont like that feeling.

I dont like the feeling that is overcoming me right now. What makes me feel worse is that I see my best friend almost everyday in school and many times i have been wanting to tell her certain things yet I held back becos a part of me deters me from doing so. No. I cannot say and I have to keep everything to myself, becos as long as anyone is slightly involved in it, they are not and should not be allowed to know about it. So yah, it really feels terrible.

I dont know what to say, but i guess it’s affecting me really alot. I thought I was able to cope with it. I mean, I thought I could at least remain nonchalent about it. What should I do now? I have no idea. Anyway, thinking back, what can I do?? I’m totally in no control of it. Sigh sigh sigh. Tell me tell me what should i do??!!!

With Love,

Rui Min

Piling Workload.

My workload is piling up without my knowing. I was quite shocked when I tried listing down the number of tasks. Okie, I have like 15 things left undone. And as this week goes by, the tasks shall increase again. My mid term holidays is nxt week (yea, for god sake it’s CNY), and I shall make use of this week to try complete all the undone tasks. Arrgh.

And I reallyI am in a confused state and I need someone to confide to. I am really very overwhelmed with emotions lately. I dont know why am I so affected about it. Why am I getting weaker and weaker when dealing with such stuff. I need a drug, to help me stay calm. I need erica’s listening ear.

Huiqi leaving this wed, another goodbye process again. I dread it.

With Love,

Rui Min

I hate probabilty.

Binomial probability, discrete and continuous probabilities, you suck the hell out of it.

I want doraemon “Kao shi ji yi mian bao”, I need it desperately cos I need to memorise all the formulas!!!

With Love,

Rui Min

I love birthdays. :)

Kaiting’s had her official bday celebration on wed and it was fun! The bbq was held on the night of her birthday and yup, we came to early to help her and yet she was late!!! hahahha!! And i got sunburnt becos i forgot to apply sunblock, but I dont understand becos although the afternoon sun was hot, I was sitting under the shade!!!

The night was fun, jokes, laughters, unglam photos so on and so forth happened and bascially everyone was enjoying themselves, no awkwardness even though some of us had never seen one another before. lol. No photos to upload becos all of us were apparently perspiring like mad and were sticky all over our body so yah, all the photos arent nice anyway. lols. But so what? What matters is the fun anyway, and I’m seeing it on another perspective that it was a bonding session. A great great one. hahaha!

CNY is just next week, somehow i dont feel anything special.

With Love,

Rui Min

I get confused easily these days. My fault or your fault?

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Bon Voyage.

Bon Voyage Max! This was smth that we forgot to wish u just now. Our minds were preoccupied with mixed feelings! I kept my promise! I didnt cry! haha! Becos, u didnt, so it’s much easier for us to control our tears. hee. Will miss you though, will miss your loud voice. hahahah! Kidding lah. But Study hard there, and do rmb, if there’s anything u need help or wish to talk about and yet u feel uncomfy to tell your family, our mobiles are always on. Or we Skype!!! Nxt week is HQ turn, that crybaby sure will cry one lah! Hope u find someone special in melbourne!! hahah!

Okie, so I’m now waiting for KT’s 21st bday chalet on wed! DD

And, I realised I miss you.

With Love,

Rui Min

Lack of Brain cells.

Econometrics is killing me soon, I really really hate probability. I hated it in the past and I still hate it now. Irritated by it. Seeing my to-do-list piling up aint making me feel good at all. Lots of tutorials and readings left undone. Arrgh. shit. And I’m getting older, I often easily get tired, to the extent of almost dozing off while walking!!! I need smth to boost myself. I need an oomph for me to carry on this mundane but busy life. On a side note, kt bday nxt wed!! excited excited. hahahah.

Cuzzy told me smth rather random but meaningful ystd. She said, “you know you need someone and love someone when you think about him/her before you sleep”. I was like huh? and then oh yah! I agree! hahahaha. What about you?Do you agree with her?

With Love,

Rui Min

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Procrastinate.

Third week of school and tutorial assignments are beginning to pile up my lovely study table, but obviously, I am procratinating! Microecons tutorial today, I dont reli like the way it is taught. So stressful to go up and explain to the entire class lah. If i were to get call up by her, I think my mind will go blank entirely…

And finally, kt’s bday present is settled!!! And the drinking session which wileen brought up ystd, makes itches my heart! hahaha!! But, the next day i still have sch. Arggh.

 I think next week will be an emotional one for me. 1st feb, to send you off to aussie and I promise I will try hard not to cry. Maybe ping will be the one to cry first. hahaha…. 3rd feb, kaiting’s bday chalet!!

Wileen, dont feel bad about it. It’s nothing wrong. Really. This is just parts and parcels of life. U should noe what am I talking about right? haha.

Somehow, I am feeling very vexed now about smth which I think I should not fret about. It’s just a waste of my time and caused me nothing but emotional turmoil.

With Love,

Rui Min

I dont like my life now. It’s utterly boring.

Final gathering???? NO!!!

I went to meet my gals at bugis for dinner and dessert after school. Everyone was present. This is sorta the final gatehring for the 5 of us as Max and HQ are leaving in one week and two weeks time respectively.  The next gathering shall be like 9 or 10 mths later?? Oh gosh. Anyhow, We took pics! Photos are with hq so I hope the two of you faster go create an FB account when u gals have settled down in aussie. I know right now you all are now busy searching for accomodation and stuff.

Oh and we met leeping and lydia at bugis just now. Leeping said I have grown taller!! But.. no leh!! I measured my height last sem, I’m still the same!!! haha. I think must be becos she hasnt seen me for like a year?? forgot that I am a tall girl. lol.

Kaiting’s 21st bday coming soon! Cracking my brains and I hav to think hard what are the presents she prefer. Hmmmm.

With Love,

Rui Min