I dont like the feeling that is overcoming me right now. What makes me feel worse is that I see my best friend almost everyday in school and many times i have been wanting to tell her certain things yet I held back becos a part of me deters me from doing so. No. I cannot say and I have to keep everything to myself, becos as long as anyone is slightly involved in it, they are not and should not be allowed to know about it. So yah, it really feels terrible.
I dont know what to say, but i guess it’s affecting me really alot. I thought I was able to cope with it. I mean, I thought I could at least remain nonchalent about it. What should I do now? I have no idea. Anyway, thinking back, what can I do?? I’m totally in no control of it. Sigh sigh sigh. Tell me tell me what should i do??!!!
With Love,
Rui Min